hey bloogggiiee long time no posting and i think this is the right time to share some stories who come from my home. i hope my parents gonna search my name on google find this blog and realize how much i hurt, look what they have done to me. that seriously not really good.
i spend a lot of time in my home honestly i'm not really feel comfertable in my own home i wonder why and may be it's because my parents behavior especially my dad. his ego is bigger than this world he always blame someone else for his own false. of course is affect me and my sister. first may be just me who feel like this but soon my sister will feel the same. all i want in my head right now is jus RUN AWAY it heard too much but just that i thought for now. i just want that my parents respect my decision i'm not their doll. i know i'm their child but it doesn't mean they can control my own life without caring what i think what i feel. it feel unfair. especially for this life. what they do right now just ruin my joy. i'm very fuckin' jealous with my friends, i'm just regular teenager. this time is the biggest time of my whole life. in this time i will built my character and go figure who i am. all i want is just support from my parents just it, is that too much?.
i wanna share some story with my mom like my friends do, they can share all they think. they can talk about boys,friends,teachers,school and all the girl stuff. but i just can't do it. i can't just open my heart my mind to tell those things to my mom. i love her so much but she never can understand me. all i do is always wrong. i'll try my best to get high score but if i can get 85 she still fell it so low. i don't know what am i supposed to do. should i meet psychiatrist? or run away to the National commission child?
all i wanna say right now is i love my parents so much. i need a little respect from them. just respect all i do to them. i'll try my best to be good girl. so please try your best to be a perfect parents to me. :')
